Product Of My Environment

   I have learned more in the past month about my ability to write is highly reflective on the environment. I am in control of my environment.

    I go back to when the first time i wrote willfully , it was after midnight and i was still living at home. Since it was so late , everyone else had gone to bed and i was having trouble sleeping as usual. It was during these sleepless nights that my thoughts were able to go without interuption. Things just made a little bit more sense during hours. This isn't to say that company was bad , but when i had a lot of thoughts , emotions and fears going through on my mind took longer to sort things out.

     Any artist of sorts whether it's an artist , musician or writer has to have control of an environment to be able to go through the creative process and come out the other side with a work of art. This is how it is for me , but in writing the works i have done for my essays , i have also learned that this process is much longer than just the time it takes to type the words as i have found myself thinking. , perhaps all day of what i would later be writing. During this time of thought i have had this craving to be alone to sort out thoughts and to put concepts to use to describe the reason as to why something may be the way it is.

      When writing , i am very picky about how i sit and what type of noise is going on one thing about my writings is that about half of my blogs and i had estimate over 80% of every book chapter i have ever written had music playing on the background. However , as with everything else about writing , i am rather particular about the music being played. There have been exceptioms if the song lyrics are in line with a topic i am writing about which helps channel the emotions but usually i need primarily classical songs to help bring out the words.

     My writings are written my the depths of my conscious. I can express anything of emotional relevance. So too now with my writing , if i am in a place where's there's chatter or distractions , it can be hard for me to write. There have been exceptions. If i am going to talk about what i feel , instead of what i am seeing , i need complete control of my environment because to speak from the soul there is a need of full trust in all things around me. Sometimes i may be picky about where or how i write but there is a good reason to this because i either can or can't write as there is no middle ground to what my environment will allow me to do.

Written by : Nazmi Aiman